Today this post may be about you. Or it may apply in a week, a month, the future... Summer day, gorgeous weather you wake up and all you want to do is crawl back to bed and stay there until... what seems like forever. You call in sick or decide to just suck it up and continue with your daily life no matter how much you don't feel like it. Or you get back from work and not being able to hold your emotions anymore, you burst into tears. You feel like crying, crying loud so you cry. You have your reasons, the reasons which make you upset, which hurt only you. You know that the only person affected by your reasons is you so you feel like you're the only person crying, you feel like you're crying alone.
You decide to look for distractions and glance at facebook - you see couples kissing, friends smiling and laughing. It seems to you that everyone in the world is having an amazing time but you.
The message of this post is to let everyone know that you're not crying alone. If in the moment that you cry, most people seem happy, rest assured that they did cry and maybe at that moment you had a great time.
This post was inspired by a few events, which happened lately. I had a few people over for a party recently and a friend, who confirmed did not show up. I was kind of upset, called her the next day and she admitted that last night she couldn't stop crying because yet once again she got rejected after her job interview. She's been trying to find a job for a while now but she has always seemed to me she was this confident person, who takes rejection well treating it as a challenge more than discouragement. I would never even imagine that it was bringing her to tears.
Another person I know had a breakdown because of her weight. She disappeared for days admitting later that she was embarrassed to go out. A few days ago I stumbled upon one of the posts of Emily from
Cupcakes and Cashmere - the Emily who is engaged, who cooks beautiful food and whose life seems perfect to everyone following her blog. Well, she published a post A Good Cry where she mentions a movie Legends of the Fall, which she chose to watch when she was "feeling off."
"I couldn’t quite articulate what was wrong, but I just didn’t feel like
myself and wasn’t sure what would make me feel better. I pride myself in
usually knowing exactly what I need – whether it’s a night out with
girls, a great meal with my husband, or some time alone reading in bed.
But this particular weekend, nothing sounded appealing" - she writes.
Emily and both of my friends are just a few examples. I'm another one. Yes, I do cry and when I cry and have a bad day it does seem to me that the whole wide world is having a great time but I. A while back I wrote a related
blog post.
I was debating if I should write a non uplifting post. "Is that what my readers would like to read in the morning, during their coffee break at work or at night?" I decided to post it because above all I'd love this blog to be real. Life is: jumps, polka dots, laughs but also at times tears and you're not alone to be experiencing it all.
